20th June 2013

Just ended my work and now on my back. Today was a really hazy day I would say. So thick sia the haze. Feels very very difficult to breathe.. Haha. Should really find out how to buy N95 Masks ASAP.. But in the meantime should keep myself from going outdoor too much. 100 PSI = 6.5 cigars. That's really a lot. 

Been doing some reflection about my life the past few months ever since I stepped down as a leader in church. Truthfully speaking, I feel way better to live my life this way. Even though I have way lesser friends, at least I don't feel threaten. 

Been thinking about all the times we spend together as a CG.. Always wondered if what I have really done was the right choice.. Sigh... Been emotional here sia. What to do ah? Totally feels horrible sia. Haha. 

Oh well~ just feel like blogging randomly. Totally wasting my life and time~ ciao~

18th March 2013

Really long day today.

Been all over the place.

Today I would say is one of those really long day. Woke up to worship followed by spending some time with my mum. Went to work at AMK Challenger and surprisingly I managed to sell a big item today. :) wow. Plus in this outlet. Breakthrough!! Woohoo!! Gonna let this stay as a reminder that I can sell!

Blogging on my way back from work, I just realized one thing though. Working as a promoter has gotten me to know a lot of different people in the work force. Got a even bigger insight to the workforce. Haha. Being a promoter especially for this company is a really big blessing.

Oh well, just a short update. Been going out for Holidays and really getting to know more people. Haha. :) awesome~~~

Signing off~~

6th March 2013 (Painful post)

[Note to readers and self]

Do not read this post if you are feeling down. :)

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I think I finally understand what is happening to me.. It's not about me, not about others, definitely not about the situation around me. I have been living a great live no matter how hard I try.

I am suffering from depression. I think I really need to seek professional help. All the symptoms for depression fits me.. Lack of sleep to very little sleep, lost interest in hobbies, unable to find joy in the things I used to like doing the most. Everything fits into my description...


The effects of depressions... I feel really empty and hopeless in my life. It's as of there is no point.. I don't dare to tell anyone about this... Will anyone choose to accept that I am depressed?

I don't want to be labelled as mentally unstable... I am screwed inside out... I.... Don't want.... to.... be another experiment... another tool to be used...

1st February 2013

Back after a really long long break from blogging. Partly the reason for not blogging is because I have been really busy with studies lately.

To start of, had tutorials and AM project meeting with the group. Been waking up really Early for the past few days and I would say that I am really troubled by that. I feel like I am suffering from insomnia. Haha. Now blogging with my iPhone while traveling back home. :)

Been listening to this song called I Will Rise by Chris Tomlin. It's a really great song. Gotta really listen it.

Been feeling really negative about my life lately. Can't really help it that I managed to survive so far. Your grace is sufficient in my life.

Been doing some self reflection of my life lately, thinking about the struggles I went, the mountains I have conquered and the valleys I have went through. Truthfully speaking, I feel really really lost but I know that there is something greater for me in life. I somehow lost the vision that I had at the beginning.. I don't want to lose it. Such a powerful feeling.

I know that God has something installed for me. It's just a matter of finding the right path..
There has been so much troubles in my life. However, I know that I shouldn't focus on my problems but instead, focus on others who need more help than I do.

I think the reason for my behavior is because I have been surrounded by so many people who are negative. I should really hang out with people who are positive in life.

Oh well, enough self reflection. Time to head back to study. Haha. Cya~

2nd January 2013

It's finally a new year! Blogging with my iPhone this time round. Haha.

Just a update on my day. Had a really long day in school. So many days of projects. Plus getting back my results. Truthfully speaking, I am disappointed with my results but I know I can do better.

Well, with that aside, I really think that today was a really tiring day. Feeling totally drained by my project group mates. Haha. Guess I need a bigger capacity to love the people around me even more..

Went though Christmas and went through new year to love all the people. Haha. It's been a really busy season. Great to have great friends...

With that aside, I really think that God has moved so much in my life.. Thankful for all the things you have blessed me with. I have run with You for so long yet I still have a lot more things which I wanna know more about..

Photos of everything interesting which I have done or seen. Haha.

Seen Ronnie messing around with his hair. Haha. Had a really amazing a great Countdown. Our Zone had a new member added. The name is Lap Zhap. A really cute kitten. (Can't tell if its a he or a she)

Had a great friend to join me for Christmas. :) haha. Didn't know you still can find a real friend in poly. :)

So yep that wraps up my week. Haha. Being a bit emotional today + hyper. Haha.

Signing off~

19th December 2012

Started blogging on the way home with my iPhone. its been awhile since that i have touched this blog. haha. :)

Today was a really great day. managed to have a close friend with me for Christmas party today. It's really fun and tiring at the same time planning for the party Although i didn't do much. Haha. It's really memorable (for me) especially when I get dunked by the people. Haha.


The year is coming to an end soon. So many things have happened. Some great others not so great. Laughed with the joys and building new friendship with people. Getting to know more people and about their lives.

Some not so happy times where we lose friends and lose great pillars of our lives. Times where all we ever feel was the loneliness of fighting and times where I feel like giving up. We win some and we learn some.


Well, to sum it up, this has been a really happening year for me. Guess that's the life of how a Christian should live as. :) A life filled with ups and downs in life where we can experience both the joys and learning how to cherish it while at the same time go through the tests that God has placed for us knowing that it will definitely build us.

Looking back at where I was, I come far but I wanna even further in life.

10th January 2013 (My mid life Crisis)

Thank You by C3

Verse 1:
THANK YOU FOR THE PROMISES YOU MADE
FOR THE GIFT OF LIFE YOU GAVE
ALWAYS I WILL SING YOUR PRAISE

Verse 2:
THANK YOU FOR THE CHANCE TO LIVE AGAIN
FOR YOUR GRACE THAT NEVER ENDS
ALWAYS I WILL SING YOU PRAISE

Chorus:
HALLELU--JAH
HALLELU--JAH
HALLELU--JAH
MY BELOVED KING
TO YOU I SING

Bridge:
YOU MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME
YOU’RE ALL THIS WORLD WILL NEVER BE
YOUR NAME REIGNS IN MY HEART
YOU’RE ALL THAT I DEPEND ON


This is the only song that is keeping me alive..
I may be walking the deepest valley of my life but I will not be crushed by what happens on the outside. I have walked too far in life to give up everything. Thank You for everything. You have made my life to be better than ever before.. For my family, for my friends and more importantly, my salvation...

You will always be the God of my forever.. Everything I have, I lay them at Your feet. Teach me to humble myself again..

Another emotional post~ sorry..