28 Oct 2010

Beginning the process of venting out anger here.
Please ignore this post.
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Screw you! Don't ignore me! I never said that I am always free! Don't think you are the only person stress!
I am experiencing extreme pressure from so many people! don't add it on me please!
I wanna shout and punch but I don't want to destroy anything!
I don't want to destroy my image but I wanna make myself known!
Totally hate my life TTM now!
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End of venting out anger. Still kinda upset..........
Followed the rule of my blog.
Oh well, better luck next time. >.<

14th Oct 2010

read finish all my previous post. I just realize that I am unstable in my thinking.
Maybe it is really true that I am just another failed experiment. =P
Oh well, who cares. =D
Haha!
Live life to the fullest!
I know I can't change the past but I know I can change the future. =D

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19th sept 2010

Yesterday was one of the most memorable night of my life.
I apologize to her after plucking up all my courage.
Didn't expect her to forgive me so easily but now........ I am just totally shocked that she did.
Guess anything is possible.
I made a terrible mistake by losing faith in God.
At least now I know that God still loves me like a child and wants me to grow for the better.
I totally thank Him for giving me the courage and molding me to become a cultured person.
For that I am at a lost for words. =D
I just can't describe how much I love you God.
I can't thank you enough. =)
After yesterday, I felt like a changed person.
Not gonna blog too much about this anymore. Cya~
=D

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14 sept 2010

First I am gonna make sure I totally forget about you.
I will delete my knowledge about you.
Traces of you will be gone.
I will never fall back anymore. I don't wanna do this but I have no choice.
Good bye!

11 Sept 2010

I am gonna express my feelings using some poem instead of writing it out here.
Hope people would understand.

It feel great to know you at first
However, I now regret even knowing you
I only want to be friends with you
Is that asking too much?
I feel that I had given you too many chances
I am just trying to be friends
For your information, I am not a weakling
I have now come to a conclusion though,
You have changed. Can't say if that is good or bad though but you have changed.
I don't believe in your lies anymore.
I don't feel happy nor sorrow.
Good luck to you
I won't be there for you anymore if you fall
I had given my best only to realize that you weren't even trying
Even if you come back, I won't forget the past mistakes.
I wanna believe that you are a good person but I know that is not true anymore.
I refuse to give in anymore.
Good bye.

Well~ That is all I guess.

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9th sept 2010

I feel so sad and terrible. Everything in life is crashing down. Family,friends,studies,work,relationship etc. I just can't handle the pressure without support. I wish I am able to hang on to something that is worth fighting for in my life.

29th Aug 2010

I don't want to cry anymore.
I don't want to fall into the same trap twice.
If you don't want to forgive me, I don't care.
It won't do me and you any good.
I know I should not be doing all this. Haha! I will just smile and watch as both of us destroy this friendship.
We used to talk and enjoy each other's company but now we barely maintain eye contact.
I will wait.
I made my move but it is you who rejected me.
I won't make another move until you do something about it.
I don't feel guilty just for your information.

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24th Aug 2010

I expected her to ignore me totally. During English and Literature class, she totally ignored me as if I don't exist. Everything is going according to plan. I expected this to happen.
Lets just keep it this way till the end of O levels. I don't want such a person anymore. The only things left to do would be to just tie a few opened knots up and I am totally done. =D
I have better things to do now than to worry for you.
I used to say that I need you in my life. Now, I feel that it is better we go separate ways. I don't want you in my life. I don't want a relationship(now at least). So unpredictable. =D
Yes I know I sound random by typing all this and some may even wonder who is "she" I am referring to. The answer is..... Not gonna say. For those who know, Shhh!!!!!

Overall day: Awesome! =D can't wait for tomorrow!
My feelings: Totally great! Almost feel very high!

23rd August 2010

Note: The following post will be disturbing and maybe very insulting especially to the person I am referring to. I would strongly suggest that you would read this post at your own risk.If you get offended, I can't do anything about this. You have been warned!




I Totally hate the feeling of being ignored. As usual, I notice that she does not acknowledge me anymore as if she has lost all respect for me.
I just want to say that I used to like you but now, I just want to be friends. I don't wish to create enemies in secondary school. I don't want a relationship until 21!
I now what I say now may sound very hurtful and possibly insulting but I really don't understand you anymore.
You literally shut me off. I don't mind the fact that you hate me but I mind about the fact that you refuse to share your problems or thoughts. And yet you expect me to tell you everything..... Kinda pathetic if I have to comment.
Frankly speaking, I don't know what to do now.
The last time she ignored me, I feel devastated by her actions. but now, I feel kinda happy that you ignored me. =D I felt devastated last time because I was partly at fault and I didn't know about it. I felt almost as if I had committed a crime or sin.
But now, I feel kinda happy as I believe I am not at fault. I don't feel guilty at all. I apologized to you and if you don't accept it, fine with me. =D
I know why you are angry, partly because I said that it was shocking that your parent highest education is a pre-U. It was meant to be a compliment not an insult! apology if I said something wrong but I am not perfect. =|
I used to be short tempered and I would flare up for such small lewd remarks but I am changing now. I am now able to control my temper most of the time.
I pray that you would also change.
It is only 16 more days till N level. I won't waste my time to fix something that is not worth doing at all.
I know I sound very bad right now but I am not perfect! nobody is! Don't expect a change that easy cause I used to be a rebel and now you want me to become a cultured person. It is not as easy as prescribing a medicine to a sick person!
It is more complicated than that!
Anyways, All I can do now is pray that you would forgive me and move on with life instead of wasting your time and energy on this pathetic argument.
If you don't want to be friends anymore, then suit yourself. I have nothing to lose and nothing to gain from this experience. All I will lose will be a friend.
My feelings: Totally upset but I won't show it to anyone.
My day: Great day! =D

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