So many things to blog about... where should I start?
Well... In the beginning God created the heaven and earth.. XD
Hahha!! Too far.. JkJK!
Well.. let's start from the very beginning... gonna skip everything I had in June cause is just full of discouragement and all sorts of terrible things..
7th July 2011
Was totally sad that my life was at the deepest valley.... people shooting me with words that cut right through me....
I had a terrible family who didn't understand me at all...
The pain I had to go through each day in school being mocked and challenged for my actions...
Another reason was because I felt that I am very useless in pastoral work.. How come everyone is receiving DC while I don't?
Why is everyone rising up except me??
Why is it that I am always bad with my skills that I do?
That's the reason why I started to dull out and become withdrawn to people around me...
I just couldn't believe that even my friend as a Christian would speak death into me..
8th July 2011
My birthday yet the only things I received were punches and nasty words from people..
Celebrated (Who am I lying???) with Adrian and the clique of people.
Went home only to realized that my parents forgot about my birthday totally..
Not only that, I was scolded by my grandma for my problems that I didn't create.
My parents had a fierce argument and my brother persecuted me for my morning prayers and my beliefs...
I broke down on my birthday... only Samantha talked to me and encouraged me but I couldn't smile anymore....
The tears that couldn't stop flowing.... cried a river on my way to bed...
I was thinking of God's plan for me. Did it really happen or was I just to naive to hear my own voice? That was the question that keep flowing in my mind..
9th July 2011
woke up with yet arguments... left home early hoping that I could lift away the burden by talking to friends and going for a worship session with my CG...
During worship session, I couldn't stop crying for some reason, within that 1 hour, I felt ministered by God... took away the pain and burden that I carried and spoke to me something so personal and powerful...
My leader spoke to me and told me to focus on my strengths... I didn't quite understand where are my strengths...
That was the first time I felt God really touching my heart and guiding me..
Taken Down from security ministry due to AE take down..
Spend time with my best friend in church before going home to be persecuted by people again..
13th July 2011
During QT, I asked Him about the sentence that my leader shared, turns out that my strength were all along there, right infront of me.
I made it this far yet I didn't cherish the moment.
I was fearfully and wonderfully made by God.
I smiled as the song "because of You" played in my Ipod touch and I could only smile with tears of joy flowing down me.
The fact that my plans were real...
I prayed for a revival in TSS to happen. :)
Before I knew it, 2 hours had passed..
This was the day that I truly smiled.
"The reason you had a terrible past it so that when you face true darkness, you will face true light."
Now, I know that Your love is always real. :)
There was a major breakthrough for me in my life.
I managed to invite my junior for AE service. :D
yes!! Amen!!!
After prayers and fasting, it came to past. :)
Thank You so much.
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