2nd Nobember 2011

A few more weeks to exams are finally over... Can't wait...

Who am I lying??? I seriously don't know why I have to go through this...

I had enough of people like you all!!!


Gotta remain calm... You guys are like dogs barking.. Irritating like mad. Usually I would ignore but you dogs started to bite...


My life is in a complete mess.. -_-""


Feeling so... Depressed...

I need You God...
Please show me how to worship and pray all over again....


This sucks...

If only time could rewind... I wouldn't have admitted to anyone that I liked you....... That was completely unnecessary..


Sudden flashbacks of you keep on flooding my mind.. How we would talk during class... Laughed with each other ..

Time to move on.. now we just small talk( if I am lucky)...

Seeing each other everyday but never once talked... This is stupid...

Stranger again...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tSdELZxEnHY&feature=youtube_gdata_player


Time is the best medicine after all. Haha.
Wouldn't blame you for being like this.. If you are happy doing this then yeah..

I am just so sorry that I attempted to believe we could just be friends....

You become a leader... I have degraded...

Guess I was wrong to say that I am "on fire" for God.....


So depressed... Guess you will never read this post.. I know I will regret writing this post and someone is gonna read this and start the whole thing all over again.............


Being totally down today.. Can't shed tears...

9th October 2011

My road to no return
My world has been completely destroyed
A crossroad which bent and lead me into a trap of oblivion.
A oblivion where it will never end, the pain of emptiness...

I used to have (great) dreams and (real) hopes
Where the world didn't mean anything to me
A place where I could call it a sanctuary
I always thought the darkness inside of me could be subdued with the power of Light.

It turns out to be naive thinking.
A failed experiment will always be a failed experiment.
It doesn't change the fact that you are no different from crooks and evil people.

I want to have a hope again.. That feeling where I really started to believe.
Did I make a correct choice or was it just hallucination?

Oh such agony
To explain it would show the incompetence of me.
Why did such a person like me even existed?
It sounds easy to take a different path but it's difficult to leave due to the bridges I have burned...

What did I do wrong to deserve this?

What was I thinking to have hope? Great friends, awesome life, stable family?

I bring dishonor...
If I was dying, I don't deserve anyone to help me...


Well, I find it so hopeless to even blog about my pain and sadness.

being emo.... sad...