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Blogging via iPod touch. :) just finished serving in security. Enjoying every bit of it.. But feeling sick... *Ugh*
Here is some bits about my story. =| it's kinda depressing and sad... Let's start with my primary school.. people say that I have a heart of gold. Always helping people..
But one very bad disadvantage I had was that I was a slow learner. My results were terrible so I was thrown into a lousy class.. =( Back then, people who got thrown into D and below classes were usually considered the "rotten apples" in society.. (Yes! That's what my teacher said!)
People had a prejudice that we were all gangsters and look down on us.. Eventually (almost) everyone accepted the fact and fall into bad company except me.. I became a outcast at primary 2 because of my queer attitude...
Gotten into my first serious fight at primary 3.. Fought with someone who was in a better class. In the end, the bully was let off scot free while I get punished for a fight which I never start or fight back at all..
I was labelled by the school as mentally unstable (A.K.A crazy) everyone treated me like as if I had leprosy and avoided me altogether.. Teachers didn't believe in me..
Parents never understood me.. Everyone left me when I needed them the most...
Back then, I was only primary 3 and the blow of knowing that I was alienated by everyone was just so great!! It was a major blow... I gave up in myself and become introverted...
I can still remember that during assembly in school, the discipline master said that I was a trouble maker and announce my name... The principal announced that I am a "big fat liar"... ( every quote are the exact words that I used...
I don't really feel like sharing so much on the net.. Who knows how many people are reading this... =S maybe I will share more next time..
Cya~
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Saturday, December 17, 2011
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
14th December 2011
Been awhile since I started to blog.. Hmm.. About half a month At least.. :P been so busy this few weeks. Finally get to blog while on my home from a MRT ride.. :) (You guess it, blogging via iPod touch again. :D)
A friend of mine request to know about my story.. :P hmm.. I think I will consider posting it all on my blog. :D
Lets see, let's start with the things that I have been doing. :P
Been all around Singapore delivering stuff. :P really tired but went to some awesome place and some interesting events. Haha. First up, i found this well in the middle of the whole shopping mall. ( Can't remember where is was and yes, it's real! ) The well is glowing with multiple colors when I went to take a look. :)
Went back to the company and had lunch with the stuff there. Saw this awesome looking (plus cute!!) cat at the coffee shop but couldn't take a picture of it.. :( it turned away when I tried to take a picture... ( Camera shy?? I think so =P )
Last Saturday(10th December 2011), went for a secondary school outing with my friends. It was totally awesome!! Went to Farrer park MRT to have lunch/dinner with them. Order the squid ink spaghetti.. Looks strange but tasted awesome! :D hahaha! LOL!! in the end my faces is black because f te spaghetti. -_-""
Oh. Also saw this picture at the menu at the restaurant I went.. They spelled pork wrongly. =O
Rush back home from family dinner and saw this cute little baby staring at me!! LOL!! took a picture when she is not looking.. Haha.
Something amazing to share, went through AMT and completed. Graduated from AMT!! sweet!! Grew so much from that 1 day!! :D hahaha! :) love my life so much!! :)
"it's not about the events or the test but it's about the experience you will take back when you leave the place."
About my story, maybe i will share when we meet face to face. :P haha. Or on the other hand, just stay tuned for more bits of stories!
Signing off from here!! Cya~
Cheers readers~~
Good night!!
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A friend of mine request to know about my story.. :P hmm.. I think I will consider posting it all on my blog. :D
Lets see, let's start with the things that I have been doing. :P
Been all around Singapore delivering stuff. :P really tired but went to some awesome place and some interesting events. Haha. First up, i found this well in the middle of the whole shopping mall. ( Can't remember where is was and yes, it's real! ) The well is glowing with multiple colors when I went to take a look. :)
Went back to the company and had lunch with the stuff there. Saw this awesome looking (plus cute!!) cat at the coffee shop but couldn't take a picture of it.. :( it turned away when I tried to take a picture... ( Camera shy?? I think so =P )
Last Saturday(10th December 2011), went for a secondary school outing with my friends. It was totally awesome!! Went to Farrer park MRT to have lunch/dinner with them. Order the squid ink spaghetti.. Looks strange but tasted awesome! :D hahaha! LOL!! in the end my faces is black because f te spaghetti. -_-""
Oh. Also saw this picture at the menu at the restaurant I went.. They spelled pork wrongly. =O
Rush back home from family dinner and saw this cute little baby staring at me!! LOL!! took a picture when she is not looking.. Haha.
Something amazing to share, went through AMT and completed. Graduated from AMT!! sweet!! Grew so much from that 1 day!! :D hahaha! :) love my life so much!! :)
"it's not about the events or the test but it's about the experience you will take back when you leave the place."
About my story, maybe i will share when we meet face to face. :P haha. Or on the other hand, just stay tuned for more bits of stories!
Signing off from here!! Cya~
Cheers readers~~
Good night!!
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Wednesday, November 30, 2011
29th November 2011
8.40pm
Blogging with my iPod touch..
On the way back from church again... So lonely... :|
Feeling sad though.. I wanna start work somewhere.. 1 more day before I become jobless....
Thank God for the peace in me.. I kinda feel so sorry for being bitter.
Uploaded a few photos... This is how my life went. :P went to eat one of those strange ice cream again.. This time is lime on the outside and vanilla on the inside.. :)
After that, saw that the office has this tissue box that has Doraemon faces!!!
In my mind I was like: "I want that so badly!!" but on the outside I was like: "oh. Wow that's nice. *whips out iPod to take pictures*
Went home and found out that my parents bought this pastry... (I can't remember the name!! I only remember that it has cream on the inside and chocolate at the top. :P).
The following day, woke up and I saw this beautiful sunrise and was so amazed.. Looking at such wonders made me really wonder about what my life would really be like without You..
I guess I would have even lived.. Thank You for believing me...
Some say that I only act holy and I am just hot air... Whatever~
Went to little India to deliver goods to customers.. The smell is just so... Hmm.. Unique. :P ( don't wanna start another race war)
That aside, gonna blog something else that's in my heart.
About what happen yesterday, was just really sad... My pay is way lower than any pay and I have a feeling of bitterness in my heart... =S
Feeling kinda cheated... :( sigh
Oh well, negative things again... Be gone!!! :D
Gonna sleep on the MRT.. bye~
Blogging with my iPod touch..
On the way back from church again... So lonely... :|
Feeling sad though.. I wanna start work somewhere.. 1 more day before I become jobless....
Thank God for the peace in me.. I kinda feel so sorry for being bitter.
Uploaded a few photos... This is how my life went. :P went to eat one of those strange ice cream again.. This time is lime on the outside and vanilla on the inside.. :)
After that, saw that the office has this tissue box that has Doraemon faces!!!
In my mind I was like: "I want that so badly!!" but on the outside I was like: "oh. Wow that's nice. *whips out iPod to take pictures*
Went home and found out that my parents bought this pastry... (I can't remember the name!! I only remember that it has cream on the inside and chocolate at the top. :P).
The following day, woke up and I saw this beautiful sunrise and was so amazed.. Looking at such wonders made me really wonder about what my life would really be like without You..
I guess I would have even lived.. Thank You for believing me...
Some say that I only act holy and I am just hot air... Whatever~
Went to little India to deliver goods to customers.. The smell is just so... Hmm.. Unique. :P ( don't wanna start another race war)
That aside, gonna blog something else that's in my heart.
About what happen yesterday, was just really sad... My pay is way lower than any pay and I have a feeling of bitterness in my heart... =S
Feeling kinda cheated... :( sigh
Oh well, negative things again... Be gone!!! :D
Gonna sleep on the MRT.. bye~
Friday, November 18, 2011
18th November 2011 (Dreams and Vision)
Blogging while on the way back from church. :)
Didn't go for prom night at all. Haha. Defeats the purpose of going since all my friends not going..
Didn't like the hypocrites there. So yeah..
That defeats the purpose totally for going to prom night. :P besides, will get bullied again..
Went to work since Thursday. Send off my leader on a Wednesday afternoon. Will miss Jun Zhou so much when he is gone though..
Good news:
-Became a CG admin. Can't wait to start. :)
-Can play guitar as much as I want. :D
-Got a job... Zzz I doubt that's a good news...
Bad news:
-I have become introverted... =.=
+(I have a serious problem with that..)
Oh well, the bad outweighs the good news so overall should be good..
Been feeling so faith filled since I shared my problems with leaders and God.. :)
Had this really cool ice cream that tasted like lime on the outside and vanilla on the inside.. simplicity at it's best. :D
Random thought:
I have started to realize that I have more girl friends than guy friends... -_-""
I can't get along with most guys in school...
I am glad that school finally ended.. Don't have to face persecution from people anymore. :)
Won't be angry at them.. Thank You God for teaching me how to love them... I have changed so much in this 1 year alone... So many incident that hurt me physically, mentally and emotionally...
Quote: ( My specific vision)
You shall love the lost and the broken. The person to give hope to the hopeless.
A person to heal the injured and help the helpless people... A healer to mend the broken people..
That was the words I heard from God.. He promised me that at the beginning of the year...
What I didn't know was that in order to understand a broken person, one must experience the pain and suffering of a broken person...
Guess I am not insane. I didn't lose my sanity... I made a strong friendship with people I don't even know I could ever made..
You win some, you learn some..
Learn from yesterday
Live for today
Hope for tomorrow
Cheers~
Been so amazed by God... Wow...
Oh well, long blog post here. Hmm... Maybe I should give it a title.. I only give titles to post that are significant to me... How about dreams and vision???
Cya all~ bye readers~
Didn't go for prom night at all. Haha. Defeats the purpose of going since all my friends not going..
Didn't like the hypocrites there. So yeah..
That defeats the purpose totally for going to prom night. :P besides, will get bullied again..
Went to work since Thursday. Send off my leader on a Wednesday afternoon. Will miss Jun Zhou so much when he is gone though..
Good news:
-Became a CG admin. Can't wait to start. :)
-Can play guitar as much as I want. :D
-Got a job... Zzz I doubt that's a good news...
Bad news:
-I have become introverted... =.=
+(I have a serious problem with that..)
Oh well, the bad outweighs the good news so overall should be good..
Been feeling so faith filled since I shared my problems with leaders and God.. :)
Had this really cool ice cream that tasted like lime on the outside and vanilla on the inside.. simplicity at it's best. :D
Random thought:
I have started to realize that I have more girl friends than guy friends... -_-""
I can't get along with most guys in school...
I am glad that school finally ended.. Don't have to face persecution from people anymore. :)
Won't be angry at them.. Thank You God for teaching me how to love them... I have changed so much in this 1 year alone... So many incident that hurt me physically, mentally and emotionally...
Quote: ( My specific vision)
You shall love the lost and the broken. The person to give hope to the hopeless.
A person to heal the injured and help the helpless people... A healer to mend the broken people..
That was the words I heard from God.. He promised me that at the beginning of the year...
What I didn't know was that in order to understand a broken person, one must experience the pain and suffering of a broken person...
Guess I am not insane. I didn't lose my sanity... I made a strong friendship with people I don't even know I could ever made..
You win some, you learn some..
Learn from yesterday
Live for today
Hope for tomorrow
Cheers~
Been so amazed by God... Wow...
Oh well, long blog post here. Hmm... Maybe I should give it a title.. I only give titles to post that are significant to me... How about dreams and vision???
Cya all~ bye readers~
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
12th November 2011 ( Remembrance)
On the way home now and taking this time to blog.
Pastor Kong came to preach today!!! Zai!! :)
Awesome service. I wanna do things more than what is expected of me!
These are the days where it really reminded and taught me the reason why I was in this church.
Really blessed to be HOGC.. When Lynette was preaching the Word. Amazing....
My revelation today:
We do not have to fully understand God to call upon His Name and use His power. I finally understand the reason now. The reason to why to go through all those injustice.
Went to church on Friday for a prayer meeting with James, Jun Zhou and Leon... Amazing faith filled people.. I feel so blessed...
My brothers in Christ....
I somehow feel so emotional today... Shucks... Lol
Listening to Paramore songs to drown myself with all the fears and doubts.
I can't stop having nightmares though... Time to express myself again.
A battle of valor
A fight of inequality
A conflict with my other 'self'
A war of loneliness
A clash of equal strength but unequal judgement
I don't wanna just survive anymore... I have enough of just barely scraping through!
I wanna WIN and not just survive!
You guys calling me arrogant have no idea what I have gone through.
Hmm... Oh my.. Being so... Better stop....
Cya~
Pastor Kong came to preach today!!! Zai!! :)
Awesome service. I wanna do things more than what is expected of me!
These are the days where it really reminded and taught me the reason why I was in this church.
Really blessed to be HOGC.. When Lynette was preaching the Word. Amazing....
My revelation today:
We do not have to fully understand God to call upon His Name and use His power. I finally understand the reason now. The reason to why to go through all those injustice.
Went to church on Friday for a prayer meeting with James, Jun Zhou and Leon... Amazing faith filled people.. I feel so blessed...
My brothers in Christ....
I somehow feel so emotional today... Shucks... Lol
Listening to Paramore songs to drown myself with all the fears and doubts.
I can't stop having nightmares though... Time to express myself again.
A battle of valor
A fight of inequality
A conflict with my other 'self'
A war of loneliness
A clash of equal strength but unequal judgement
I don't wanna just survive anymore... I have enough of just barely scraping through!
I wanna WIN and not just survive!
You guys calling me arrogant have no idea what I have gone through.
Hmm... Oh my.. Being so... Better stop....
Cya~
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
8 November 2011
7.30am
Blogging on my iPod touch now. On my way to work again...
Sleepy to the max uh!!! Woke up then my dad ask me work.... Only have like 5-6 hours sleep again. :(
Anyways, had a mind blowing weekend! Pastor Frazer Rowe and Bishop Dale Bronner came to our church to preach today!! Awesome! <3
Awesome weekend! Hahahaha! Feels as if I went for a outing the whole day. So happy. :)
Feeling like so... Ugh.. Groggy.. Feel like going back home to sleep. :P
Oh well, gonna blog later.
Cya~
8.36pm
So tired after my work shift. :( on my way home from work now. :)
Saw a dead cobra on the way to work. Thank God it didn't attack anyone. *Phew*
Anyway, working hours was extended by up to 12h today. Wonder if there is OT payment. :P
Was listening to the song Breathe by Taylor Swift. The lyrics remind me of the you back then.. Brings back sweet memories I had with you... Followed by the painful memories..
Those moments I had to go through when you suddenly ignored me and after 6 months. You treat it as if nothing happened... •__•
Now it feels hard to talk.. Such issues remained unsettled. Shucks. :P
Never conveyed this feeling to anyone before.. It just breaks my heart and breaks me down totally..
I don't wanna cry anymore.. I need to be strong. :)
I have my leaders that have been so supportive. :) thank you for writing those cards. ( LOL! writing this despite the fact that they won't be able to see it)
Cya~
Blogging on my iPod touch now. On my way to work again...
Sleepy to the max uh!!! Woke up then my dad ask me work.... Only have like 5-6 hours sleep again. :(
Anyways, had a mind blowing weekend! Pastor Frazer Rowe and Bishop Dale Bronner came to our church to preach today!! Awesome! <3
Awesome weekend! Hahahaha! Feels as if I went for a outing the whole day. So happy. :)
Feeling like so... Ugh.. Groggy.. Feel like going back home to sleep. :P
Oh well, gonna blog later.
Cya~
8.36pm
So tired after my work shift. :( on my way home from work now. :)
Saw a dead cobra on the way to work. Thank God it didn't attack anyone. *Phew*
Anyway, working hours was extended by up to 12h today. Wonder if there is OT payment. :P
Was listening to the song Breathe by Taylor Swift. The lyrics remind me of the you back then.. Brings back sweet memories I had with you... Followed by the painful memories..
Those moments I had to go through when you suddenly ignored me and after 6 months. You treat it as if nothing happened... •__•
Now it feels hard to talk.. Such issues remained unsettled. Shucks. :P
Never conveyed this feeling to anyone before.. It just breaks my heart and breaks me down totally..
I don't wanna cry anymore.. I need to be strong. :)
I have my leaders that have been so supportive. :) thank you for writing those cards. ( LOL! writing this despite the fact that they won't be able to see it)
Cya~
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
2nd Nobember 2011
A few more weeks to exams are finally over... Can't wait...
Who am I lying??? I seriously don't know why I have to go through this...
I had enough of people like you all!!!
Gotta remain calm... You guys are like dogs barking.. Irritating like mad. Usually I would ignore but you dogs started to bite...
My life is in a complete mess.. -_-""
Feeling so... Depressed...
I need You God...
Please show me how to worship and pray all over again....
This sucks...
If only time could rewind... I wouldn't have admitted to anyone that I liked you....... That was completely unnecessary..
Sudden flashbacks of you keep on flooding my mind.. How we would talk during class... Laughed with each other ..
Time to move on.. now we just small talk( if I am lucky)...
Seeing each other everyday but never once talked... This is stupid...
Stranger again...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tSdELZxEnHY&feature=youtube_gdata_player
Time is the best medicine after all. Haha.
Wouldn't blame you for being like this.. If you are happy doing this then yeah..
I am just so sorry that I attempted to believe we could just be friends....
You become a leader... I have degraded...
Guess I was wrong to say that I am "on fire" for God.....
So depressed... Guess you will never read this post.. I know I will regret writing this post and someone is gonna read this and start the whole thing all over again.............
Being totally down today.. Can't shed tears...
Who am I lying??? I seriously don't know why I have to go through this...
I had enough of people like you all!!!
Gotta remain calm... You guys are like dogs barking.. Irritating like mad. Usually I would ignore but you dogs started to bite...
My life is in a complete mess.. -_-""
Feeling so... Depressed...
I need You God...
Please show me how to worship and pray all over again....
This sucks...
If only time could rewind... I wouldn't have admitted to anyone that I liked you....... That was completely unnecessary..
Sudden flashbacks of you keep on flooding my mind.. How we would talk during class... Laughed with each other ..
Time to move on.. now we just small talk( if I am lucky)...
Seeing each other everyday but never once talked... This is stupid...
Stranger again...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tSdELZxEnHY&feature=youtube_gdata_player
Time is the best medicine after all. Haha.
Wouldn't blame you for being like this.. If you are happy doing this then yeah..
I am just so sorry that I attempted to believe we could just be friends....
You become a leader... I have degraded...
Guess I was wrong to say that I am "on fire" for God.....
So depressed... Guess you will never read this post.. I know I will regret writing this post and someone is gonna read this and start the whole thing all over again.............
Being totally down today.. Can't shed tears...
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