17th September 2011

Went to work today... Now blogging on the way home.. :( I wanted to go church today but my dad is sick till the point that I need to look after his business. Oh man... Feeling so tired now... Sigh..

Couldn't sleep this morning. Been having nightmares.. I feel really scared now.. Those feelings felt so real. Keep having flashbacks for some reason..


Yesterday was having my food and nutrition Prelims exam. Was thinking about someone for no reason halfway through my exams.. Of all people, why her??? >.< Aiyo!!! Better not think about it. Haha..

Anyways, was working and I ended up injuring my left knee again.. Ouch... Kicked against the car when I tried to get in.. Now my leg is in pain....



Ouchy!!! Came back only around 3pm to eat the ice cream. :) awesome!!! But so tired.. Hmm... Oh well..

Been having so many exams lately. Got 1 incident I wanna share though.. Came to school early as i wanted to study but the security guard confiscated my pass and marked me late for coming to school 5 hours early. =O

Tried to explain to the guard that I had exams but he told me it was OM's order. In my mind I was stunned! Lucky Mr Lim was there to save the day. (hip-hip hooray!) LOL! XD

I notice I am being very childish. I apologize uh!! Sorry!

Anyways, the papers so far felt kinda easy. Wish I was hardworking back then and studied. :( really wanted to go express class. Sad.

Oh well... Still very down and depressed.. Was hoping someone would drop a SMS and ask how I am doing. Better not to ask for help. =X

I have a really strong feeling that my CG and I are not very connected.. Oh my! Shouldn't think like this.. I wanna show God's love to other people!! =)

Still thinking about what he said every time I someone talks to me about God's love.. Those words echo through my mind all the time...

"You never have God's love which is why you can never love other people.."

Words have huge impact... Never say something without thinking twice. Once words are said, they can never return and before you know it, the damage or impact is done..

"I really feel that you are arrogant and that you have pride in your life"

Another sentence that got carved into my life... :(

I am so sorry... :( I feel that I don't even push hard enough.. I wanna change.. I don't wanna ignore His calling.