Been updating this blog recently... So much that I have been doing it daily...
Hang out with the usual group of people... I don't think I have a group.. -_-"
I feel so wrong trying to explain myself but here goes.
With each day passing, I feel like the friendship within you and me starts to drift apart so much that now we both just small talk. :| I miss the time where I had fun with the group.. Now it feels like there is no trust towards me anymore. :(
A few days ago had a really fierce encounter with FYY and LLZ. ( not going to list out their name but those who know, keep it a secret yeah?)
FYY: walao! You see this. Christian only help Christian then other people you don't care and act so coldly.
Me: what?? No way! You don't any how. Haha.
LLZ: You bring dishonor to Christian sia. Always hold hatred towards people, still act like you very holy....
Me: (Offended but keep controlled myself and spoke calmly) What? Eh? What I do? Then you leh?
LLZ: Unlike you, I talk with everyone and I have good relationship with everyone cause I CHOSE LOVE! I don't hold grudge against anyone and I love people people regardless of who they are!
Me: (Smiling) oh.. Haha..
That was how the conversation goes... It went downhill from there on..
On the inside, I was shattered... I started to wonder what did I wrong to deserve Christians to even persecute me? Didn't you do enough damage to me?
I did love people. I try to be fair towards everyone. I know that I make mistake but to other people you guys think it's okay. However, when I make a mistake, you all treat it like it's a crime that is fit for a death sentence.
I tried explaining to you guys but you all already have that prejudice against me? What more can I do?
I really feel that I am stupid... I was the person to cause this due to my unwise decision. I am really sorry...
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