I just realized that I will always blog only when I have a problem in life...
Parents yesterday had a fierce argument. I don't know the reason why...
I only know that my mother yesterday was having a mood swing yesterday.
Instead of being sad last time, I choose to hold my tears back. I didn't want to be send back to IMH again....
Talked to Swee Kheng abaout it. nothing much to blog about..
Had a outing with Adrian, Ryan, Ming Zhi and Cheston yesterday. The outing felt so different this time round. I lost such a friend and now, I just feel that Ryan is not the same person I once knew... It just feels so awkward trying to salvage the friendship.
I want to integrate Adrian and Sze Hao but Because of him, I lost their trust altogether...
I have lost trust with him and with that, I have lost the group of friends that I have.... I want to tell them that I don't think I can do it but well, I believe that God is there for me. I won't stop believing
This are the times in life where I just wanna scream and shout out my anger..
Now, blogging with my laptop... My mother is packing her luggage and moving away this time. I really hope that she doesn't come back this time round... I really have no hope for my parents... It so messed up.
My brother is a atheist while my dad is a Buddhist pastor. Technically, I am supposed to be the successor of my dad but I chose to become a Christan... I sometimes wonder why I did that when I had such a secure future...
I wanna cry out to God.... please give me the strength to pull through it... can I love you again like my first time??
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