23th May 2011

Time: 5.46am

It takes people to remind me multiple times but if only takes Him just 1 word to make me wake up.

Have a great and fruitful weekend. Was blown away by service. :)
I am not useless.. :D thank You for constantly reminding me that..

Was severely discouraged on Friday and didn't know who to talk to until Samantha started to talk to me..

She is truly a strong woman of God. :) Thank God for blessing me with such a wonderful sister in Christ. :)

That aside, Chinese O levels is coming soon.. Gonna be taken down from ministry soon. :( sad.

Oh well, gonna blog soon..

PS: This blog has been filled with too much negative thoughts again... Contaminated by darkness.. If this continues, then I will have to shut down this blog again..



8.11pm

I just have this very strong feeling that I am totally disconnected from God's family... :( Miracles happening in their school but not mine.. :(

Feel like talking to people like them is just wasting my time and energy.. Oh my... Guess I am being very negative about myself again... Shucks....

Shutting down this blog soon...

29th march 2010

last Sunday(27th march 2011) had shared about my feelings with my leaders.
it last about 30 minutes and after that session, I feel a awful heavy load of misunderstanding and burden lifted. could not believed that it was that fast. just sharing with my leaders could help in lifting up the burden.
However, it also got me thinking more about my life though.. I should draw closer to God. I wanna carry the burden of the church.
I just realized something though.. I have been too loud and been too talkative.... I guess it is time to change soon. starting from tomorrow, I wanna slowly become more quiet and listen more.
I feel hurt but at the same time, it does not burn like the feeling I had before I opened up to my leaders. I wanna be opened like a opened book.
As I live each day, I wish to follow the footsteps of people I can trust. I wanna have a solid thinking.

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15 march 2011

my heart tells me it's alright... but my mind tells me different... I wanna love You again like the first time I have met You. Your presence was amazing and so unfailing. :)
I love You. I know that there is a season for everything and there is a reason for all thing that is happening right now. :)
I hope I am able to rise up and become a person who loves people like how You have love me even though I am a sinner.
I wanna rise up someday and become s great leader.
with that in mind, time to list out my goals:
- become more loving towards people In all walks of my life. ( starting from my parents)
- Be more humble and listen more that talk.
- Be more obedient towards You.

people say writing down my thoughts help me to stick to it.. (:

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