25t May 2011

Had a really Tired week after so many waves of Chinese mock exams... Can't they just end it asap? :(

Oh well.. Terrible week... Not gonna blog much anymore...... Nothing to talk about today...

I find peace and joy in You alone.. I know I should be strong... Really ought to thank Rui Jian for sharing such a powerful verse but I am uncertain about it...

I am not making any sense huh? Hahahaha... Nevermind. :) This blog is never private anymore.... Shutting down blog from today onwards...

This will become another place where I will pour my poems rather than blogging about my life.. :)


Poem 1:
Within the ashes of fire, lies the birth of a new being.
Within the darkness, lies a glimmer of light.
Within the light, lies a seed of darkness.
However, within a human's heart lies all of the above.
With such potential that exceed even ourselves.
We have the ability to harness both light and darkness.
It's only a matter of time before both shall rage a war.
The decisive battle is not far from now.

-Edwin Ang

Poem 2:

People always seek for perfection which is impossible.
Yet seeking for perfection helps people to be more perfect.
However, perfection is impossible as nothing is perfect within our vision.
Even the greatest law created by humans are far from perfect.
Yet it is this drive for perfection that's empowers us to do remarkable achievements.
Perfection is imperfect
Imperfection is perfect
Is the word perfection merely a word used without any logical sense?

23th May 2011

Time: 5.46am

It takes people to remind me multiple times but if only takes Him just 1 word to make me wake up.

Have a great and fruitful weekend. Was blown away by service. :)
I am not useless.. :D thank You for constantly reminding me that..

Was severely discouraged on Friday and didn't know who to talk to until Samantha started to talk to me..

She is truly a strong woman of God. :) Thank God for blessing me with such a wonderful sister in Christ. :)

That aside, Chinese O levels is coming soon.. Gonna be taken down from ministry soon. :( sad.

Oh well, gonna blog soon..

PS: This blog has been filled with too much negative thoughts again... Contaminated by darkness.. If this continues, then I will have to shut down this blog again..



8.11pm

I just have this very strong feeling that I am totally disconnected from God's family... :( Miracles happening in their school but not mine.. :(

Feel like talking to people like them is just wasting my time and energy.. Oh my... Guess I am being very negative about myself again... Shucks....

Shutting down this blog soon...

19th May 2011

This blog has become more of a place where I can write my poems to express myself.. Oh well... (EDWINNNN!! Remember what you promised?! Keep it on!!)

Don't listen to people who put you down.. Instead, do the exact opposite. listen and think

I miss the time where my family used to be united

What happen to all of my friends? I don't want to go back to my past again.. No! Np lore reliving the past!! Move on! (:

When I die, will anyone think about me? Will I become just another piece of memory or will I just fade away into the darkness where I was first born?


Those answers will be answered soon. :)

9.26pm

Somewhat those answers were answered a long time ago. :)
Thank You! Now I remember.. Cherish what I have now... I have tasted both bitterness ad sweetness of my life. Thank You for constantly reminding me.. Sorry to keep straying away from You.
My best life is real and possible because of You.

Overall day: normal. :)
Overall mood: happy. :) My name is happy. :)

16th may 2011

Sad people. Taken during my work. Lol...

14th May 2011

Had a awesome time serving in Security. :)
Can't believe I messed up so badly this time though... :(

Hahaha! Oh well, hope I will do better next time. :) jia you!!

Blogging while on the way home. Such is the wonder of IPod touch. :D hahaha!

So impacted by today's service. :D awesome service with Hwa Chong Testimonials. I wanna be more like them. I believe in it. :)

Oh well, I am so bored.. Gonna compose another poem to describe me.

Poem 1:

People ask why I am different from the rest
It's because I am not the usuals
I belong to no one.
I refuse to believe in any ideology. :D
No politics or circumstances shall hold me.
However, I only believe in 1 though, which is You. :)
I am like a soldier without any borders
A person without any belonging
This is me. My life
This is my dream life. :D


Poem 2:
Like water, I can mix with any(most) crowd.( or at least that's what I believe.:P)
Although I can adapt to any group, my core values remain the same.
I may not mix well with all types of people but I know that I can mix with the people I want.
I rather satisfy people I want.
It's impossible to satisfy everyone. :)
So to all haters out there, Thank you for spending time to highlight my mistakes. :D
I still love you Guys though. :) awesome peeps! :)
Regardless if you hate me or not. :D

Overall day: tired and fatigue.. :'( over exerted this time... Cause so much hindrance to everyone. I wanna be a asset next time.

Overall mood: happy. :D Hahhaha!! So what emo during the afternoon's but strangely, gone. :P The power of God. XD haha!

12th may 2011

Had a great time with Adrian and the rest of the group. played around with drinks. :P hahah...

Saw Kimberlyn at clement mall today! she became more beautiful ever since we last met. :O (ever since primary 4)
still can't forget that first time meeting her. :P

Kimberlyn: HI EDWIN!
Me: *ignores her*
Kimberlyn: HI EDWINNNN!
Me: * still ignoring her*
Kimberlyn: EDWIN! I SAID HI RIGHT!?
Me: *Shocked expression* Oh, hi hi...
Kimberlyn: Hahaha! :D Don't so quiet!
Me: *Ignores*
Kimberlyn: EDWIN!! OI!!

haha! always like her cheerful voice. :P
lol!! I sound like a pervert. :X
now that I think about it, it was funny ttvm!! hahahha! XP

Not gonna be emotional. I had enough of this. :)

I need real friends. :)
they say that in secondary school, it is the best time to fins true friends..
right now I have 1 who I can really trust.
The very same person who led me to my salvation. :D haha!
Hope there won't be arguments or fights today... :) haha!

I am so addicted by paramore songs. Hmm...
oh well, This will become my personal journal and possibly my dairy.
(Shut up haters! I know what you guys are thinking!)

ciaos!
:D

11th May 2011

Starting from today onwards, not gonna follow all the rules. :P I rather be myself than to me someone I am not. :)


A poem to describe me:

I don't need a reason to be happy.
I may fall into sins at times in my life
I may have major conflicts with everyone.
I may even have times where people don't trust me and neither to I trust them.
But 1 thing is for sure. I am happy being myself.
This is my fight, this is my life
I wanna change but I don't wanna lose myself again.
I chose to believe in God because I want to.
I may have done it on impulse at first
Some even say I have done it because out of liking someone
but I am now a Son in Your house. :)

Haha... that is a poem to describe me.. :P I usually use poems to convey my feelings.. too bad nobody understand...

My mind is kinda twisted. So many thoughts that are so sophisticated.. :O
I rather have a simple mind..

Happiness or wisdom?

well, I want happiness but instead I am blessed with wisdom. oh well, can aim for happiness. haha.. writing so much useless information here...

Oh well, just feel happy for no reason today.. :) I am valuable in His eyes. I wanna glorify Him with everything I have.

Played basketball with the usual group of people again. almost had a heatstroke after that session. went home to sleep only to wake up with sign of heatstroke.

lucky I didn't have any problems. :) Tomorrow's is Chinese paper 2. sure gonna flunk that paper big time.. I wanna take CLB. :'( My parents CLB is useless.. Lol... oh well..

gonna go back to playing guitar soon. :) always blogging with my iPod. :P don't even have time to use computer. :( haizz..... hahaha.. :)

Time to rebuild relationship. :) Starting from my school friends then my leaders. :) (Jia you EDWINNNN!)







overall day: tiring. wish I can feel like this everyday. Won't have energy to think about anything.

overall mood: somewhat peaceful and happy even though there is war and etc. :D The peace of God I guess. hahhhaha!!!!

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