23rd June 2011

Back after so long. ;)

This could possibly be my last post. Have to really activate 20 hour study rule from now onwards.
Academic excellence take down is coming soon!!! Nooo!! :(
So fun being in security!! :(
Plus my L1R5 is terrible. Gonna be removed from pastoral work too. :(
Sad ttvm, :(
Oh well~ I will prove myself. I heard there will be a prelims after the holiday.
A check list to remind myself. :D

No using of internet for more than 3 hours
No more Facebook for unnecessary reasons
No watching Television for more than an hour
Fulfill a 20 hour study rule.


that's all folks~ Cya~

16th June 2011

7.16pm
This has been a terrible roller coaster ride... A ride where things started to change...
I know now that friends aren't real in life...
The world is a place where solitude exist.
However, I know that I have a friend who I can rely on when my life crashes...
Thank You for letting me meet such a person in life. :)

Had a really terrible nightmare.... What's the point of even describing it? Is always my past flash backs. :) Haha!

Had a really awesome camp! Crossroad camp has really impacted me.. I wanted to thank Roy for praying for me. (:

Going out to have dinner with my parents soon. Will blog again later. :D

Peace! (Y)

10.02pm

My house has become a war zone where cold war can take place. :O
Shocking to see that both parties are arguing. :(
Oh well, maybe I will blog early in the morning.
I just realized that I made a terrible mistake in pastoral work today. Gotta be more careful next time.

3rd June 2011

I feel as though I keep having insecurity in my life... Eh? What the... I should not even be saying this.. The old me died on the Cross with Christ and know I am born again.. :)

Yesterday had QT... Impacted by His knowledge. :)
Questions to ask before speaking and and doing...
Lastly, think positive. :)

Conducted tuition with my batch of students. :D So glad that Sze Hao finally learned Venn diagram. :D yes! *Self-pat of shoulder*

Let's use this tuition to talk to people and reach out. Hahaha!
For too long I have always look at things from a negative view... Now I will be positive as much as possible. :)

Not gonna blog much anymore. It's 5.30am in the morning. :D possibly Vlog(video blogging) in the afternoon. :)

Angry post

Lashing out anger here at this post: Ignore if not interested.



1st person. Person MZ: I hate you!!! Everyone of you! Jerks!
I hate you for everything!! You think u big ar know the girls names only act like some ah beng?

I not interested yet you all day only talk about girls then of course I nothing to say ma!! You all only stalk then always get into BGR with them for the sake of filling up that insecurity! Come on la! Grow up can or not!? Sheesh!

Even the people there from pure and innocent to dirty and perverted because of you! Own self horny also no need to share the feeling ma!

You think is a trend that using vulgarity will make you popular?? U are sadly wrong!

Btw just for your information, I am someone who does not really need people like you to treat me like this. I am drawing the line here. We are just schoolmates. Nothing more. Don't try to act friendly.. You will just spoil my mood altogether... I allow people like you to jab me and enjoy laughter BUT don't you go overboard and speak death into me! I won't accept it. Stupid air pork!

Btw, I hate you touching me so hands off! And you are not muscular so don't act just because you can bench press weights that are more than mine while I can't. Wanna challenge endurance? I bet you won't last at all!


Next person. Person RS: What happen to our friendship man? Can't you remember what you shared with me?? Yet look at yourself.. Flirting and scolding vulgarities... Did you really meant what you said??
The friendship we have used to be unbreakable but now our friendship is questionable.. Disappointed in you...


Next person. Person LZ: You still dare call yourself a Christian despite the fact that you talk without any sense of thinking?? Always so perverted and talk about not so nice stuff to people. Then followed by acts that purposely irritate me! You do know that I have a bad day yet you chose to disturb me.. Later still complain why I so sensitive? Jerk! And yet still dare call yourself a Christian!?!?

25t May 2011

Had a really Tired week after so many waves of Chinese mock exams... Can't they just end it asap? :(

Oh well.. Terrible week... Not gonna blog much anymore...... Nothing to talk about today...

I find peace and joy in You alone.. I know I should be strong... Really ought to thank Rui Jian for sharing such a powerful verse but I am uncertain about it...

I am not making any sense huh? Hahahaha... Nevermind. :) This blog is never private anymore.... Shutting down blog from today onwards...

This will become another place where I will pour my poems rather than blogging about my life.. :)


Poem 1:
Within the ashes of fire, lies the birth of a new being.
Within the darkness, lies a glimmer of light.
Within the light, lies a seed of darkness.
However, within a human's heart lies all of the above.
With such potential that exceed even ourselves.
We have the ability to harness both light and darkness.
It's only a matter of time before both shall rage a war.
The decisive battle is not far from now.

-Edwin Ang

Poem 2:

People always seek for perfection which is impossible.
Yet seeking for perfection helps people to be more perfect.
However, perfection is impossible as nothing is perfect within our vision.
Even the greatest law created by humans are far from perfect.
Yet it is this drive for perfection that's empowers us to do remarkable achievements.
Perfection is imperfect
Imperfection is perfect
Is the word perfection merely a word used without any logical sense?

23th May 2011

Time: 5.46am

It takes people to remind me multiple times but if only takes Him just 1 word to make me wake up.

Have a great and fruitful weekend. Was blown away by service. :)
I am not useless.. :D thank You for constantly reminding me that..

Was severely discouraged on Friday and didn't know who to talk to until Samantha started to talk to me..

She is truly a strong woman of God. :) Thank God for blessing me with such a wonderful sister in Christ. :)

That aside, Chinese O levels is coming soon.. Gonna be taken down from ministry soon. :( sad.

Oh well, gonna blog soon..

PS: This blog has been filled with too much negative thoughts again... Contaminated by darkness.. If this continues, then I will have to shut down this blog again..



8.11pm

I just have this very strong feeling that I am totally disconnected from God's family... :( Miracles happening in their school but not mine.. :(

Feel like talking to people like them is just wasting my time and energy.. Oh my... Guess I am being very negative about myself again... Shucks....

Shutting down this blog soon...

19th May 2011

This blog has become more of a place where I can write my poems to express myself.. Oh well... (EDWINNNN!! Remember what you promised?! Keep it on!!)

Don't listen to people who put you down.. Instead, do the exact opposite. listen and think

I miss the time where my family used to be united

What happen to all of my friends? I don't want to go back to my past again.. No! Np lore reliving the past!! Move on! (:

When I die, will anyone think about me? Will I become just another piece of memory or will I just fade away into the darkness where I was first born?


Those answers will be answered soon. :)

9.26pm

Somewhat those answers were answered a long time ago. :)
Thank You! Now I remember.. Cherish what I have now... I have tasted both bitterness ad sweetness of my life. Thank You for constantly reminding me.. Sorry to keep straying away from You.
My best life is real and possible because of You.

Overall day: normal. :)
Overall mood: happy. :) My name is happy. :)